Out Damn Spot

I keep having dreams with my ex-husband in them and I have no clue why. Obviously they are trying to tell me something, but what, I don't know. I know that I have a lot of unresolved feelings about the store which is why I dream about it a lot (like last night) but some of the other stuff in there is so bizarre.

I suppose I miss some aspects of our relationship. He was a very artistic, outgoing person, very much my personality. He had a lot of friends and was totally comfortable being in a room of actors (something Alex abhors) even performing in some. We had a hell of a lot of fun.

What I don't miss was the lack of goals, the fact he was a coddled mamma's boy, the crappy sex, and most of all the alcohol abuse which destroyed everything. So why doesn't the negative drive these dreams away? Why must I keep having them?

Ugh they need to stop.


Stephanie said...

This is what the dream dictionary says about dreaming of an ex husband/wife:
To see your ex-husband/wife in your dream, indicates that you are finding yourself in a situation that you do not want to be in.? It suggests that you are experiencing a similar relationship or situation which makes you feel unhappy and uncomfortable.

I have no idea if that has any relavance to your life right now or not. I often dream of one particular ex boyfriend...no idea why. It does freak me out when it happens.

Jennifer said...

I can see that.

I don't remember having these dreams before we started to TTC. My ex reneged on having kids (one reason we broke up) and with all this stress lately I know deep down I'm afraid of my DH doing the same thing.